Rabbit Hole

Thrust into the unknown. Who knows what I'll become. Tumbling down the rabbit hole, Mud clings to my clothes and I'm afraid I can't see, Can't see exactly what I'm supposed to be. Dead or alive? It's all so surreal. I can't tell fact from fiction. Sifting through delusions to uncover the truth, but the truth cannot be found So I'm left to wonder did it ever really exist? Was it ever something tangible, or was it merely a fairytale? The answer may never be found but that doesn't mean the question shouldn't be raised. And so I ask this, will I...

Disappointed

     Disappointed. That word holds more weight to me than any other word I know. Disappointed in my felony four vandalism charge. Disappointed in my DUI charge. Disappointed in my three or four underage alcohol consumption charges. (I'm honestly not sure how many it is. Sad I know) I'm disappointed in my actions this previous weekend.      It feels like I'm constantly switching between being content with who I am, and feeling completely worthless. It's a complete transformation. It's really a constant struggle; a...

Carry On

How do you find hope in a hopeless world? How do you find joy when there is no joy to be found? Where is the happiness hiding when you're in despair? How do you escape when you're trapped in a dungeon of darkness that engulfs you? The answer isn't easy to find, but it is there, lying under the tears.  Take a breath,   Relax,    Close your eyes     And search your heart. You will find redemption. You will find salvation. It may be over a hill, or it may be over the tallest mountain peak. But...

Where Did the Year Go?

     As my freshman year rapidly comes to a close I'm asking myself where did the time go? It wasn't too long ago that I was an anxious, nervous, 18 year old getting ready to move in the Lower East Side and ready to start a new chapter in my book of life. I thought I had a vague idea what direction my life was heading toward. Now, I've never been more unsure of anything.      I currently reside in Brooklyn Heights after spending some time in South Jamaica Queens before hand. I now attend St. Francis College instead...